Everyone Must Breathe Until Their Dying Breath

I have come to the conclusion that I am far too young to "fall in love". I do not want to get married anytime soon, and I don't want to deal with heartbreak. That just is not fun. SO! No more bitter sad music, no more Nutella and romance-free action movies. I am done with that. I am going to be selfish for a bit and focus solely on me and my goals.

I want to travel. I want to go back to New York, I want to go to Hawaii with Carly Roberts, I want to go to Europe. I want to go to Australia. I want to go to India. I want to go to Israel. I want to go to Africa. I want to go to South America. I want to go to Bora Bora.
I think I would spend AT LEAST an entire month in Europe. At the very least. I just want to explore, and see other cultures. I want to see the history of the world, the places that are thousands of years old instead of hundreds. I want to meet people, and make new friends. I want to learn hands-on about people, places, and things.

However, I need money. Therefore I am looking for a job that will give me more hours and more money than Forever 21. If I can't find that, then I'll just get a second part-time job and my life will be hell. But! I'll have money!! And if that doesn't work out then I'll just sell my body.
That was a joke.
Then in two years I'll either move to Disneyland or Disneyworld, or hop on a Disney Cruise, and play one of the Princesses!

I want to take voice lessons. And do theatre again. I want to play the piano everyday, I want to learn a new difficult song. I want to read lots of books. I want to paint. I want to meet new people, and share new experiences. To broaden my skills and interests. To fill my mind and soul with God's wonderful creations.

These are things I want to do by myself. And although I'm sure I would love to meet the man of my dreams tomorrow, I kind of don't want to. I'm not emotionally ready for that big of a commitment yet. I need to establish who I am before establishing an eternal companionship.

And so I'm moving on. And, don't tell my parents, but I want to take a year off of schooling and just work. A lot. I want to do a paid internship. And once I've saved up enough money, I'll travel.
Wish me luck!! :)

On The Radio- Regina Spektor

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."
-- Helen Keller

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
-- Mark Twain

"It started out as a feeling, which then turned into a hope. Which then turned into a quiet thought, which then turned into a quiet word. Then that word grew louder and louder til it was a battle cry- I'll come back, when you call me, no need to say goodbye.

Just because everything's changing, doesn't mean it's never been this way before. All you can do is try to know who your friends are as you head off to the war. Pick a star on the dark horizon and follow the light, you'll come back when it's over, no need to say goodbye. You'll come back when it's over, no need to say goodbye." -Regina Spektor, The Call

And while I'm on this "I WANT" spree, I might as well say that I want a baby jaguar, just like Jasper Pippin :)